"Keep it Ugly"

A blog to track weight loss progress, rants and inspirations.

Starting Weight: 175
Current Weight: Between 155-160
Goal Weight: 115

Other life improvements in progress:
-Creating more
-Learning guitar
-Attending therapy
-Living more fearlessly

~ Tuesday, April 15 ~
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~ Wednesday, April 9 ~
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#TransformationTuesday (yeah, I’m a few minutes late. Oh, well): 

Weight loss is a painful undertaking. You remind yourself constantly, “I don’t like you very much, Self. You need to change,” and often—though the changing is positive—the negative feelings toward yourself have a nasty way of overriding that.

 Most days I look in the mirror and want to cry. Today was one such day. I can’t see any visible progress, so I thought it was time for a comparison. I put on the outfit I was wearing in the most honest and terrifying photo ever taken of me and gave it a go. 

Health-minded folk often say we should judge our bodies for what they can do rather than for what they look like. The celebratory stance in picture two is for my first 8-minute mile on an elliptical. If I’m judging this annoying sack of skin and water for its ability, then yeah, today I guess I can say I’m proud. 😊

poisonandfire:

#TransformationTuesday (yeah, I’m a few minutes late. Oh, well):

Weight loss is a painful undertaking. You remind yourself constantly, “I don’t like you very much, Self. You need to change,” and often—though the changing is positive—the negative feelings toward yourself have a nasty way of overriding that.

Most days I look in the mirror and want to cry. Today was one such day. I can’t see any visible progress, so I thought it was time for a comparison. I put on the outfit I was wearing in the most honest and terrifying photo ever taken of me and gave it a go.

Health-minded folk often say we should judge our bodies for what they can do rather than for what they look like. The celebratory stance in picture two is for my first 8-minute mile on an elliptical. If I’m judging this annoying sack of skin and water for its ability, then yeah, today I guess I can say I’m proud. 😊

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~ Sunday, December 8 ~
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"How did you do that? That’s amazing!"

File under: Things a nurse shouldn’t say to someone who admits their disordered eating patterns.
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Yesterday, through a series of medical appointments, I found out that I weigh 60 pounds more than I did last year. That’s half a person more.

When I explained this the nurse practitioner who saw me and explained that it was through over-exercise and near-starvation that I had ruined my metabolism, I didn’t expect fascination as a response.

I didn’t expect “That’s amazing.” “How did you do that,” and I felt a little guilty when I beamed with pride.

Yeah, I WAS strong. It was a feat of great determination.

Ugh. No no no! Those are bad thoughts!

But… They’re true?


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~ Tuesday, February 12 ~
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Quiet

Because under-eating is far less shameful than binge-eating….

I can’t win.


~ Thursday, January 3 ~
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(Source: foodheavenshow)


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~ Monday, September 24 ~
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PLATEAU (and how I unintentionally kicked mine’s ass)

Plateau: The dread monster of a thing that no one on a weight loss journey wants to hit.

And, of course, I managed to hit it. AND, with just a few pounds left to shed before creeping my way out of the BMI-defined “overweight” category.

Great.

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~ Sunday, August 19 ~
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~ Saturday, August 18 ~
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~ Friday, August 17 ~
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~ Thursday, August 16 ~
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BLACKOUT

I had a bit of a scary experience tonight post-workout…

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